I’m sorry you had a bad day and couldn’t see anything beautiful about yourself,
or if everyday is like this.
I’m sorry you don’t see your individuality and you don’t see that there is something about you that is unlike any other human in this world,
and that alone makes you beautiful and irreplaceable.
I’m sorry you don’t fit your own standards of how you wish you looked,
but I can assure you that your standards don’t compare to how lovely you already are.
I’m sorry you’re unhappy,
and i hope one day you stand in front of your mirror and smile.
I feel empty. and worthless. and vile.
I want to feel whole again. I want to feel like my strongest self again. But…I feel so broken. I feel so weary. I feel like I’m never going to be good enough.
I feel like I need other people to fix me and make me feel whole again, but I know that I can’t be that person. I don’t want to be that person that needs someone else to love them before I can go back to loving myself…but I forgot how to do it on my own. I forgot how to be happy again. Happy without alcohol or drugs or people around me. I forgot how to live life with confidence and self-assurance.
I’m fucking screwed. I can feel myself getting more and more lost by the minute and I don’t know how to get the fuck back. I hate myself more than anything else right now.
How do I go back? someone help me go back to being me…whoever that even is…
to be the one you think of
when you can’t think straight.
I just feel so alone….